:: My Blog's Name is Jennifer ::

:: Wednesday, July 31, 2002 ::

Whenever I heard someone talk about meeting up with some friend they hadn't seen in years and say that it didn't feel different at all talking to them, I'd think that was stupid. It had to be different, after all that time apart. But you know what? I was wrong.

After Kim moved away sophomore year, I've kept contact with her through letters and email and an occasional call, but it was never really the same thing as a conversation. But now, after WAY too long, she got AIM and we can talk for hours without a long pause! I don't know about the rest of you, but most of my IM convos end up in a gradual increase in pauses until me and the other person just stop talking for the day. I've missed Kim so much these past years, and I'm so glad we can just talk about nothing again now!
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Which Brady Bunch kid are you most like?

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My mom told me all this crazy, messed-up crap that's been going on at her work lately. I know she needs someone to talk to, but I resent it. I wish I had the parents who just kept everything from their kids and got ulcers by worrying silently. Now I have to worry about her and what's she's going through, like I don't have enough to think about, what with school starting in less than a month! What's worse is that she just kept talking and talking about it. Then she started to cry because I'm leaving soon. Why do I always have to act like the adult? This was not a happy day.
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I am 21-40% Ghetto



I WISH I was ghetto. I need to take them gold plated teeth and get some REAL gold teeth..
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This is a quote from the latest edition of Off-Kilter:

"As a publicity gimmick, Taco Bell recently paid the University of Saskatchewan’s star registry program to name a new constellation after its Border Bowl meal. The company also plans to name a constellation after the spork, the hybrid spoon-fork commonly found in fast-food restaurants. Seriously."

THIS is the scientific world I'm going to be joining?!
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There's a bug bite of some sort on my right ankle, and it itches like crazy. I have no idea how I got it or from what; I haven't even gotten mosquito bites this summer, let alone any from other bugs. It's bothering me immensely, in fact...a big bite, even. Dammit, now I can think of nothing else.
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Find your inner fast food! by Emily

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Okay, so the other dream had something to do with me getting a part in a play. The role was as the "Vampiress" and for it I wore a black prom dress/ball gown. But interestingly, the role consisted of my singing folk songs and opera in an ensemble, even though I was technically the star.
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Last night I had a couple of weird dreams. In the first one, I was taking the math entrance test for college (which I'll actually be taking next month). It was in a small room, much like the classrooms at Cypress College. But as everyone started, the person giving the test shut off the lights to "help us concentrate." This made it hard to see my paper and I couldn't see what came up on the calculator at all. Then the lady started talking to us, ending up with a story about something that'd happened that morning. But when I raised my hand and asked if we could have extra time since we'd been distracted with her talking, she got mad at me and left.

I can't remember the other dream completely. Maybe later...
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find out yours, from your dear friend emily.

Bowling shoes are cool.
:: Mac 10:35 AM [+] ::
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GAH!! I just messed up two of my favorite shirts by not washing them inside out!! I'm an eighteen-years-old, a high school graduate, and cannot successfully wash my own laundry without screwing it up. How am I supposed to go off to college and take care of myslef when I can't wash my clothes?? I feel stupid.


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Big news - the first humanoids that migrated from Africa to the rest of the world were small-brained and had very monkey-like features, including huge teeth. This is upsetting anthropologists because it throws out a lot of what we THOUGHT our ancestors were like in the extremely distant past. Some people are even trying to ignore the oldest human skull ever found, saying it belongs to an ape instead (and honestly, it might have). I think people are just upset at the fact that a big thing that seperated our ancestors from the simians (the ability to migrate) could've and probably was down by a near-monkey. Not such a big friggin' deal anymore, are we?
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Interesting note - approximately four out five dollar bills have traces of cocaine on them. This means that around 80% of our currency has come into contact with the drug at some point in time.

God Bless America.
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according to the "how fun are you?" test, i am...

ABOUT AS FUN AS THE NEXT GUY!

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Today is just one of those days that I really wished I knew French.

See, I took four years of Spanish instead, because, honestly, it IS more useful than French, at least in Southern California. Theoretically, it should also be somewhat easier to learn, since there are so many Spanish-speakers in the area that some of the language can be picked up by simple osmosis. That's just a myth, though. Spanish is just a friggin' hard. And it's not as cool as French. I mean, you can say ANYTHING in French and it'll sound vaguely romantic. Spanish doesn't work that way unless it's coming out of the mouth of Antonio Banderas or someone of that particular nature.

It would really help me a lot, at the moment, to know French instead. Too late.

All guys interested in being my boyfriend should note that I would be a SWEET GIRLFRIEND. How could you not want that on your arm? I, for one, if I were a lesbian, would definitely want a sweet girlfriend. Luckily, (or unluckily, depending on your sexuality of choice) I'm not. Womankind will just have to be disappointed.
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Huzzah! My (somewhat) new work of fanfiction already has 57 reviews. That's excellent. Talk about motivation to write...
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I have a sunburn from yesterday, and it hurts. Okay, not really. But I AM uncomfortable with my newly red face. I now have a lily-white neck and a flushed face.

It's not a pretty sight.
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I just watched "Mrs. Winterbourne" on Showtime. It came out in 1996 and stars Shirley McLaine, Brendan Fraser, and...Ricki Lake. What a stupid, stupid movie. Why on earth would they cast Ricki Lake, a HORRIBLE actress, in a starring role for anything? To make it worse, she's Brendan's LOVE INTEREST. It bothers me a great deal to see a really good looking guy with an average woman. It just gives me some overly-lofty hopes for myself. I see a movie like this and I think, hey, if Ricki Lake can marry someone like Brendan, maybe I...yeah, right. Brendan, by the way, was very good, as always. Sometimes I forget why he was my first favorite actor, but now my memory's refreshed. He's still my favorite American-like star. (I forgot that he's actually Canadian, if memory serves me correctly. Well, he's NORTH American, at least.)
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i'm a rabbit.what kinda pet are you?
quiz made by muna.
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My brother, mom, and I went to the O.C. Fair today. Did I mention that my mother is a psycho? We must have spent over an hour looking at the...barn animals. Like, sheep and stuff. The number of times my brother and shared that "Mom is crazy" look - a million or so. However, since I came out with a bear, photo, and stomach filled with battered potatoes, I'll call it a day well spent.

The photo, by the way, was one of those sepia-toned Old West style things you see at fairs sometimes, but never ever consider doing yourself. Well, I did it. I am now the proud owner of an 8 by 10 with me in a gown and feathery hat holding a gun and my brother as a dandy with a bottle of Jack Daniels. Seriously. I actually paid American currency to do this...and be stared at as we did so.

Much fun was had by all.
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i'm a foundation. what type of make up are you?
quiz made by muna.
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Today is the second day in a row that my younger brother missed summer school; you can only miss two a "semester" or whatever it's called. See, a couple nights ago he stayed out late and pissed my dad off, and ever since then he's been staying with my mother. When I talked to her, she said that my THIRTEEN-YEAR-OLD brother TOLD her that he "wasn't going to school on Tuesday."

Damn, that pissed me off. I said to send him home, to NOT take him with her another night, because he couldn't miss another day. He already flunked out of regular seventh grade; this is his last chance. Needless to say, he didn't come home last night. And naturally, since neither of them are capable of getting up without help before noon, there's no possibility that she got him to school via the bus.

It baffles me how she just refuses to stand up to my brother, to act like a mother. It seems that she's given up the responsibility of disciplining him now that we don't live with her. I always get the feeling she's trying to act more like a friend than a parent. We don't need any more friends - we need a mom.

My mother is an interesting character. She has three children, two of us grown, but is really incapable of acting like anything other than a big kid herself. No one in my life has ever let me down or disappointed me more than her. My older brother simply has no contact with her at all, and for years refused to speak to her; this upset her a lot, but I don't think she ever quite realized why he was so upset with her. She's almost lost me, too, on a couple occasions, usually dealing with the fact that she consistently chose her (now ex-) boyfriend over me. Once she swore to me that he wouldn't sleep over one time when I was visiting her, but when I woke up in the middle of the night, there he was. It was only my baracading myself in the bathroom, sobbing on the cold floor for hours that convinced her that next time maybe he shouldn't show up.

Yet for some reason, my little brother adores her, partially because he knows he can take advantage of her. She's naive and overly-generous, always any easy hit for a couple of bucks.

I used to think that it was because she became a mother so young, that she didn't have a chance to grow up all the way. But my father was the same age as her when they became parents, and his life is stable. With him, we've never had to worry if we'd have clean clothes or food or a place to live tomorrow. Sure, he's an immature jerk sometimes (or often), but he's responsible, and loves us at least because we're his. It took me until high school to realize just how many people I knew had fathers who were no longer a part of their lives, and how lucky I am to have a dad who's never forgotten about us.

My mother, on the other hand, while present, no longer acts like a mother. She's someone who's there.

I love her, but I'm not sure I like her.
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I got a shout-out yesterday on Joshua's journal (now one of my "recommended"), saying that there's always a lot of quizzes on my blog. It's funny 'cause it's true. Believe it or not, I initially only intended to have about one quiz a week on Jennifer. Obviously, that idea flew out the window quite a while ago.

Now, here's something interesting - I'm not entirely sure who this "Joshua" is. I'm assuming that he's Joshua S., my buddy from tenth grade P.E. and English and beyond. But he never says his last name, so how can I know for certain? The odds are it's him, because here are all the other Joshuas I know:

Josh B., from AVID - doesn't have a journal, not Korean

Josh W., my older brother - also not Korean, and doesn't own a computer

Josh Z., the Mock Trial coach's son - probably can't write that well, not Korean

Or he's some random Josh that I don't know. Hey, I have a mystery on my hands...for the time being. I'm sure sometime today, someone will Tag my Board with the answer.

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Whose Sense Of Humor Do YOU Share?

Lance is supposedly going into space. Is anyone else slightly terrified by this?
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Life is a very complex thing to you. You don't understand why there's hate, when we should all love each other. Most things bring you pain, slow painful emotional pain. You know someday you'll unlock the secrets of the universe, but right now all you want to do is lay down and think for awhile. Try not to cry.

I always get these sad results...

which asian are you?

Made by Cherry

Whee! I'm Korean!
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Notes on agnostics (myself being one):

* Agnostic - one who believes it is impossible to be certain whether there is or isn't a Supreme Being (i.e., God)

* agnostic believer - a subset of agnosticism; believe there is a God, but that we can never know His/Her true nature.

* agnostic athiest - the ones who are pretty sure there's no God, but come just short of saying so.

* there are about 2.6 million agnostics in the U.S. (or world...I can't remember)

* famous agnostics include:

* Uma Thermon
* Dave Matthews
* Matt Groening

I am proud of my people. (All info comes from some book I glanced through at the library.)
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How random are you?

this quiz was made by alanna
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Naturally, I thought of something, negating my previous pronouncement. A short something, but a something nevertheless.

Did anyone else realize that the little bear in "Country Bears" is played by Haley Joel Osment? AAAAAAAAAHHHH!! Why, Haley Joel, why? You were in "The Sixth Sense"! "AI"! Why on Earth are you playing a small talking bear? I am almost ashamed of the fact that I've been a fan of his since he was a little boy on "Thunder Alley" or whatever the hell that show was called. Ed Asner played his grandfather. You know. But I digress. I'm horrified.
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I've been writing a lot lately, and thus am not having much time to think up an interesting journal entry. So I don't think there'll be a real one today. Sorry.
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My stupid Internet isn't working well at the moment, so if there's ever a long space of time between entries, or entries that have the right date but show up late, that's the reason. Damn worthless computer.
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target="new">Which Street Fighter are you?
Test by Nathan

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Blah. My head hurts. A lot.
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Damn, I had something I wanted to talk about, but I've forgotten. That ever happen to anyone else? Ugh, it's gonna drive me crazy.

I had cajun food for dinner tonight. It was extremely delicious. My meal was Chicken Rockafeller, which is stuffed with spinach and lobster stuff, with hot bread, salad with French dressing, steamed vegatables, and seasoned mashed potatoes. Mmmm. Good stuff. The movie theater next to the restaurant was showing "The Clockwork Orange," so there were a lot of teens dressed up for that. Interesting.
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I went shopping for college stuff today. How terrifying - it makes the fact I'm going away even more real. I like my sheets though. They're blue. Very pretty, though slightly irregular. (Hey, they're cheaper that way.)

Also, I got my dorm room assignment yesterday, with my address and phone number and whatnot. I was told I'd be finding out who my roommate is, too, but I guess not. I'm terrified that I'll get assigned to some total psycho bitch who'll yell and be grumpy all the time. I can handle someone a little weird - in fact, eccentricity would be a plus, so she wouldn't be too critical of my own weirdness. I doubt this person will become my best buddy for life or anything, but I would want to be her friend.

Here's hoping.
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Take the new and improved Dashboard quiz!

By Tiffany

This is the band that'll be playing with Weezer at the concert.
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A lot of people are saying bad things about music nowadays, mostly about Eminem and the like. They don't like the way the subject matter of modern music is becoming increasingly mature or being a bad influence on the kids. Well, I've been pondering this, and realized that there are numerous popular, famous, and OLD songs that have a really bad message attatched. It's not just the new stuff, folks. Here're some examples:

(Note that the titles may be incorrect; sorry, but I'm not gonna put any research into this. If you ask me, though, I can sing at least a little of each of these songs.)

* "It's In His Kiss" - To paraphrase this song, only through sex (i.e., the "kiss") will a girl find love.

* "Jailhouse Rock" - Translation - jail rocks.

* "You're Much Too Young, Girl" - Or as I like to call it, the statutory rape song.

* "I'm A Girl Watcher" - He stalks because he cares, everyone.

* "I've Got Two Lovers" - A song seemingly about a slut turns into the tale of a woman who gets her jollies by using the serious psychological problems of her boyfriend for her own amusement.

Think about it, people. Does Eminem sound SO bad now?


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Which Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon Character are you? Quiz by

Is this good?

Which Padmé Gown Are You? Quiz made by Lauren()

Hey! This isn't a GOWN! Why not just say, "Which Padme Outfit Are You"?
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